When the Empress arrived at Lali's spot,
she broke off a piece of the sweet bread chanting
in her hooting manner. Lali felt an immense
Loving presence pouring in torrents,
invisible torrents, into her body from the Empress.
She stared incredulously into the Empress' eyes
and openned her beak, She stuck her tongue
out while the beautiful Lady placed the
aromatic nourishing bread on it.
Then the Empress continued on.
Lali accepted the bread without realizing it.
Once ingested, it made her sick to her stomach.
Lali fell forward onto her beak, like the others.
Her head was spinning and she fell helpless and
barely conscious as she held herself up
by bracing her wings on the ground.
As she fell, tumbling thru the ether within herself,
many characters began to emerge from her
consciousness. She remembers being Lali,
but now sees herself many years ahead,
as a grown woman. She's walking in a barren
wilderness. The wind blows furiously
around her where great devestation has taken
place. There are mirrors everywhere, like mirages
they form before her, and in them, she sees
the many characters she has been and will be.
Even though she can't stop the changes,
she's not afraid, only intriqued,
as she is witness to the very basis and function
of the Soul within, on it's journey thru
the material realms.
She knows what's in all hearts... In her heart too
she sees the trickery and willfulness hiding
deep within her, exposed and defined at last.
So wiley and elusive this die hard ego tripper.
So hard to recognize, even when we see it happening...see ourselves
doing it...again!
She sees though, and understands how weak
she's been, and gets her bearings on a
tack toward a future that will honor
her ancestors. She tumbles through
lives and times she's unfamiliar with.
Incredible times...in the future.
There was a child in a cave with an old man,
a teacher. When the child, a boy, was
still young, the elders took him up to the
mountain during one of their ceremonies.
He was cold, and they gave him a bitter tea.
He drank it all because it was hot.
He drank it all, and fell asleep.
She never could remember him waking up.
It puzzled her, but deeper inside she knew
that the Ceremony was successful,
He had benefited his village...and even
someday, his sacrifice would benefit
the whole of human civilization.
It was still helping keep the moon and
stars in place. Someday....
The Shining Beings were pleased by the boy's sacrifice. She knew this truth without words.
Then she saw herself coming into the 16th
Century wearing the habit of a Catholic nun.
Her name is Sor Juana de Mercedes and she
lived in a beautiful convent in Oaxaca, Mexico.
It was a blessed life of privlege because
of her prolific and insightful talent as
a writer and musician. When reprimanded
by the Bishop and her Confessor, for writing
such burning love poems, she's instructed
to destroy them all..and return to the
austerity of her spiritual vocation.
She did give up all her musical instruments
and writings...even all the beautiful things
she treasured. They didn't understand,
her truly romantic nature was all
a dance she performed for the God
she loved and worshiped.
The world could not accept her,
and she could not accept the world.
Broken hearted, disillussioned and frail, when
the plaque came, it took her...
Now Lali can see way into her future.
She sees herself as she comes into
the 20th Century as Kitty du Chambez, the
Creole girl from Harlem who wrote deeply
moving songs and sang them with
her rich, mournful voice.
But the world enslaved and degraded
her every chance it got.
Confused and alone, she accidentally takes
her own life with an overdose of heroin.
No one cared. "Just another junkie to bury..."
was all they said over her body.
Her second life in the 20th Century, was that of
Harmony, a disabled orphan of mixed heritage.
She lived on the fringe of society, trying not
to succumb to the frightening hypocrisy
and mundane derilect minds that ruled
the land and the World at that time.
A Civil Rights Activist and Native American sympathizer, she had always been persecuted,
but stood her ground nevertheless.
Harmony was tuned in to a deeper mystical
truth, she embodied through her music,
poetry and writings. Stronger than
Sor Juana, she was still not strong
enough to recover from
the cruel blows inflicted on her by loved
ones, thruout her simple but splendid life.
She lived in USA America...and because of
her Native American Nature and sentiments,
she was mocked by her own relatives and
children, She was treated as an outcast
by them; as a person that was
inferior to them socially.
"You're a square and a goody-goody. A real
Polyana" her Auntie would tell her.
All the children in the family saw and heard these
insults. To them she was not one of them.
To them, she was a joke. To them,
she was a troublemaker.
They sabbotaged and mocked her very
existance, her innocense, her sincerity...even
her earned wisdom. She was infuriated
with them, but she believed in peaceful
resolution, so hung on to her Faith,
knowing things would change..if only
someone just had the guts and integrity
to show the way with love and respect.
She knew we all are supposed to
do our part to protect our precious dear
Earth, it's atmosphere, rivers and living
beings. That's our job. We own nothing
here. We are borne as demons, but have
the chance in each lifetime, to mature
and assume our rightful position in Nature,
as Guardians. That's who and what we are...
why we're here.
Harmony gave her truth thru her songs, poems
and plays. She offered freely to the World.
Few took interest in them.
It was Harmony's destiny that most intriqued
Lali, but she still had to continue moving
through time and the changes the vision
revealed. She sees the insect Queen again,
Lemurlalo and the beasts with that one
unblinking eye in their foreheads.
She shudders and opens her eyes at last.
She's still on her beak, wobbling on her clawed
feet. She pushes herself to an upright posture
now and looks around. The Empress has
continued down the row and completes the
benediction on the last owl. Now the Empress
returns to her throne at the base of the tree.
Lali notices now that she herself has regained
her human form and she can feel the pain
of the snake bite again. It's too painful to
stand, so she removes herself from the circle,
and sits on the grass nearby, her mind still
sifting thru the meaning of the visions she
had witnessed.
As Lali sits there resting, the Empress begins
singing. She's looking directly at Lali.
The sound of the Empress' voice is so
tenderly musical. A very lovely feeling
accompanies it. The Empress goes very
high and Lali can't hear her voice any
more. She has a tingly feeling all over by
the time the Empress' voice becomes
audible again. It's not loud, but the
timbre is piercing her ears, so Lali covers
them with her hands. The Empress'
voice moves chromatically down the scale
very quickly and again becomes inaudible
in the bass register. Lali feels refreshed
and realizes that the pain from the wound
is gone. She looks for it, but can't find it.
It has healed completely. She looks
at the Empress astounded, staring
with her mouth agape.
"Well now, you are feeling better, aren't you?"
laughs the Empress' affectionately.
Lali nods affirmatively. She is speechless
and irresistibly drawn toward the Empress.
Lali notices the Empress is wearing a
magnificently jeweled necklace.
A familiar medallion hangs from it.
"Why do you stare like that my dear?"
the Empress asks sweetly. Her voice was
very kind, and gave Lali the courage to
speak. "Who are you?" she finally
stammered. "Who would you like me to be?"
replied the Empress. "Are you my mother?
ventured Lali hopefully. "No dear" replied
the Shining Lady. "Your mother is the one
who brought you to me, here beneath
the Pyramid of Lost Owls."
"My mother was the old woman?"
remarked Lali in surprize.
"Yes my dear. It was she who led you here."
"But why? continued Lali.
"Dear, she could not save herself, but
she saved you, her daughter."
"I'm afraid. What does it all mean...."
she answered as big tears welled up in her
eyes. "Are you afraid of me?" asked the
Empress. "No...yes and no" hesitated
Lali before continuing. "There's a big
hungry mother owl out there looking for
me. She already tried to devour me."
Then apprehensively asked the Empress,
"Do you eat...somewhat naughty children?"
The Empress laughed and laughed. Lali
didn't know what she said that was so
funny. Finally when she stopped laughing,
the Empress looked at Lali tenderly and said,
"No my dear, I'm not going to devour you,"
she said reassuringly. "I can't, for you see,
I'm only a reflection of your mind. You
made me up. I am who you want to be....
and are. I am who you are becoming.
If I devour you, I will no longer exist,"
and she began laughing again.
Then she added "I am the ArchAngel Enu,
your Guardian Angel, and I'm here to tell
you, if you are ever devoured,
it will be by your own lack of resolution
and self discipline."
As Lali pondered the Empress' words,
she noticed the Empress was dissolving before
her. "Wait...don't go yet" called Lali to her.
"Tell me, what does the medallion mean?
My Grandma has one just like it. She's
always threatening me with it. and what do
the visions mean dear Guardian Enu?"
As Lali continued to quiz her, a piercing
dot of light came out of the Empress' chest
and became a rainbow. It was headed toward
Lali. It happened so suddenly, Lali couldn't
avoid contact with the end of it, and it pierced
through her body like a comet, and was
lost inside of her. There was still a gaping
hole in the Empress' chest where the
rainbow shot out from. Lali was amazed to
see the night sky with stars twinkling
through the hole in the Empress' chest.
Lali shook all over. Her muscles were
twitching and her whole body convulsed.
She felt as if the very earth beneath her
was rumbling and churning.
She was sick to her stomach again
and leaned forward laying her head upon
the cool grass. Her ear was close to the earth
now and she could hear distinctly. There were
many voices. There was a huge cacophany
of voices. Voices in many languages.
She began to hear them simultaneouly,
yet she was understanding every word.
It was very odd, but didn't seem so at the time.
She recognized dialects of her language,
and knew the stories they were telling.
She listened to their thoughts erupting
from the waters of the One Mind,
whose etherical filaments continued
opening slowly, revealing It's contents to Lali.
A glance, a mere peak is all she had, but
the experience had changed her forever.
She knew now that everything was connected.
We could not hide anywhere.
Every movement, every sigh, every petulant act,
every nice thought, vibrated forever,
returning in cycles to it's place of origin.
So run as she might from her Grandmother,
eventually she would catch up with herself,
and the Universe was cold, indifferent to our
plight. What was she to do now? She was
trapped like one of those beasts in the plastic
resin compartments, sealed inside a destiny
of her own design. She wanted to be good.
But she needed help. She needed time to grow,
to breathe and bend, to test the edge of
reality...so she could know. She'd seen it.
She couldn't lie to herself anymore. Her
manner was always obvious to
others. But now finally, it was obvious to
Lali herself. A great weight had been lifted
from her it seemed, for she felt lighter, and
she knew she would have to change her ways
now for real.
"Great Lady, how do I get out of this cage?" she
blurted out loud. Her breath melted the frosty
crystals on the door of the resin compartment,
just enough to see mistily through it,
and the walls and door of the compartment
completely dissolved.
The Empress was standing now, motionless...
the chasm in her chest displaying myrids of stars,
even the Milky Way was plainly visible.
Lali was pulled compulsively closer to the
Empress, straining to see if the moon would
come up. She looked wonderingly into the
Angel's vacant stare. Lali felt as if a ray
of Light were inside her head. Whereever she
turned her attention, her mind perceived all
things about it instantly. She knew the
history and future of all living beings on
this earth...and even herself. She knew how
and when she had come to this planet...and
why. She trembled not sure she was strong
enough to carry the gravity she now embodied.
She was remembering more than Lali had
forgotten, but the future was still a dream,
and yet to be unraveled.
Lali put her hand into the chasm in the Empress'
chest as she felt a wind coming from there.
At once she was drawn involuntarily through
the chasm and sucked out into the Galaxy.
Clouds formed around her. She was pulled
through them at the speed of light
as they swirled about her. She could no longer
tell if she was being drawn up or down or to the
side. Then her foot touched something solid,
and the clouds melted away.
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